Dearest Azri Hazim

Hey Buddy,

how are you doing over there? i miss you so much man, it is still very much hard to accept about what has happened. I have so many things to say to you but i cant seem to put it in words, you meant alot to me buddy, i hope you know that. It's only been 2 days since we left Kota Bharu together. Last look i had of you was you on your computer at that cafe, my mom asked me to send you home that night but i was too tired Azri. I am so sorry. I wanted too, but i was really tired. I am so sorry...

I can't remember how we got so close, but you are one of the best, if not the best friend i have. All we ever wanted to do was to get out of Kelantan right buddy, nights like these are the hardest. Usually you're the first person i look for when i feel lonely and bored, you'd say something silly or make some silly comments and that would have made my day. You were always there for me , I hope I was for you too.

Remember our tyre burst incident? Im glad that it happened with you buddy, you calmed me down, you make everything lighter and easier. Our flights with Barry, I don't think i would've gotten through it so well if it weren't for you.

I miss going to your room doing nothing and listening to songs, our "down" playlist, i play it every minute now my friend, talking about stuff that doesnt makes sense, making fun of kelantan and the school, watching random movies and series. You made my days at kelantan a breeze.

Im sorry I didn't get your messages about your license buddy, but if i did, i wouldnt have got to spend those four days with you. Remember we were talking about what is life all about? what does it want from us? I still have no answer, it seems so unfair that yours ended so soon. But what i do know is I want to start living my life as you did. You have this amazing ability of looking everything in a positive way, when things get hard for you, you'd shrug it off and make fun of it, you never really cared for what people have to say about you. You managed your time so well.'

I still hear your voice sometimes, flipping burgers, stupid pilots, hehe. aku seteressss doe, ur laugh, haih. The advice u gave me, i will always remember my friend, and buddy, we made it dude, we became pilots. It was your dream kan azri, i could see it in your eyes, and how you talk about flying, about mas. you're so passionate about it. We made it man, doesn't matter if that matsalleh calls us stupid pilots. WE MADE IT! p.s i think he likes you.

Things are not going to be the same when we report to mas buddy, you were supposed to be my sim partner buddy, i need you, i want you to be there. who else am i going to fuck things up with?

Your family misses you man, little Haziq and Erin looks so strong though, you ought to be proud of them, your mum was distraught, I cannot even begin to imagine what she's going through.. she hugged me buddy, she misses you, I'll come visit her for sure. Your dad was struggling too. And my prayers goes to Syira. hopefully she'll be alright. Nadia too is doing better than i expected. She loves you very much buddy,i'll try and do my best for all of them okay.

I love you Azri, and i miss you so much. I'll come visit you again when i can, you will always be in my prayers Azri. I'll see you again one day.

with love.
al-fatihah